No Cigars
08/21/2007 (Health Related)
Well one whole day with nothing to smoke but my pipe… yes pipe tobacco, none of the funny tobaccy. Still it was interesting, the stress or nervousness is a little bit less, but still there.
Work went okay, least writing was alright, but I can still feel rather uptight. Not sure if that is from the lack of nicotine, or simply missing the wife. I wish he was back, but then too, maybe not. He smokes and hasn’t quit… yet.
The notion of going getting cigarettes was rather hard to ignore too. Funny, but it was when writing, and the cinnamon sticks didn’t seem to help. Smoking the pipe did, even just having it there seemed to make things easier, sort of.
Man I hope I kick this habit, I hate being controlled by some stupid craving.
Frustration is still high, but at least I didn’t go out and buy any cigarettes. Nor did I go scrounging thru the ashtray for butts. So that is something, so far.